Sunday, November 25, 2012

Trusting the Magic

I'm going to throw myself into believing in the magic of the Brand New Year. The year 2013 will be my special year. The year I will drop extra kilos and extra this and that behind!

Let the count down begin! 36 days. 36 days for buying a set hand weights and 36 days of taking my first steps in weight training. Walking and jogging are OK, but I have been told over and over weight and resistance training is essential for losing weight.

36 days of count down.

Saturday, November 24, 2012

A Little Taste of Normality

A few days ago I got to taste "normality". It was really strange. And really, really lovely.

I had had a long and stressful day, on the way home I stopped at a deli and picked up a delicious bagel with good stuff. Later I ate the bagel and that was it. I didn't even think about food or much of anything else until a few hours later when I realised I was really really thirsty. And I drank three glasses of water and went to bed.

So what was so strangely normal about my day?! Two things. Firstly, I had the delicious bagel, enjoyed it and felt satisfied. Usually after a long and stressful day and stuff my face with everything possible. Secondly, I experienced thirst. It's very rare for me to feel thirsty. And to recognise it as thirst and not a food graving.

 This is how I would love to live my life. Have this peaceful relationship to food and weight-issues. Let food serve as nutrition and not as a source of stress or destructive way of trying to cope with stress. 




Tuesday, November 6, 2012

October Runs

I did it, the October calorie count for running is 7700. That meant 108 kilometers.

The battle in my head goes on. I still haven't thrown myself in this weight loss struggle. Each day I feel yuckier and yuckier about myself, the rock bottom has to be near. And then, then the only way is up!