tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-83596328356758561382024-02-07T08:13:19.163-08:00I'm Strong but not That StrongLosing weight and getting rid of other burdens in life. Learning to live and travel light.Suzyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01937071446408284411noreply@blogger.comBlogger30125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8359632835675856138.post-44121319413107607202014-01-10T11:16:00.000-08:002014-01-10T11:16:04.625-08:00I did it - well some of it anywayI'm back to my normal weight. I'm not skinny or thin but I'm officially back to normal. Obviously, writing a blog did not turn out to be my tool. I totally lost interest at some point. The working strategy for me was "ignore the diet" and start living as a person you want to be. I already saw myself as an active person, who likes walking and running and biking and swimming and basically all the sports that are not too hard for the knees. But in real life I was also a fat runner, a fat swimmer, a fat woman hiking. To let the inner and outer image become one I increased the outdoor activities and stopped driving the car anywhere. Instead I've been walking or riding a bike everywhere since June. A sporty lady does not sit up all night and stuff her face with goodies or ten sandwiches, does she? Gradually, step by step I learned to behave like the person I wanted to be. And here I am. I'd love to reach the numbers I once used to be, but right now I'm OK here, I feel like my body and soul are the same person.Suzyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01937071446408284411noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8359632835675856138.post-50107716400733702182013-01-30T14:25:00.001-08:002013-01-31T01:22:08.013-08:00Sleeping like a LogI'm finally going down for real.<br />
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The weight <b>77.7.</b><br />
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The diet today: A heavy lunch at work and a slice of cake to celebrate a workmate's birthday. Lots and lots of hot tea. Nothing after work.<br />
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The following morning:<br />
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An interesting test, really. Not having dinner or night snack worked wonders for my sleep. I don't remember when I would have slept so well. When I woke up this morning it felt like I had been gone from this world for ages and I felt really really rested. The weight had gone down to exact <b>77</b>. However I don't really think that's real. It's probably totally temporary. You just can't lose 700 grams in one night!<br />
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Just to sleep so incredibly well I might skip dinner some other day as well!Suzyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01937071446408284411noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8359632835675856138.post-5492055237706321392013-01-25T23:32:00.000-08:002013-01-26T04:18:27.824-08:00Friday Night SuccessI went out. I had a good time. I laughed and I talked. I saw how my skinny friends ordered all kinds of portions with sausages, pasta, potato salad and fries, fries and more fries. And I, I ordered a big salad. And a big water. And some more water. I came home all happy and tired. I'm going to make this into a habit, going out without drinking. I'm totally OK with ditching Friday night alcohol drinks from my "30 kg suitcase".<br />
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The weight is <b>78.4. </b>400 grams (4 days) and I'll be back to the weight I had reached and maintained for a long time in the fall. And after those 400 grams I'll start digging deeper and deeper into my heavy "suitcase" and keep throwing stuff out until I travel totally light!<br />
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Have a fantastic weekend everyone. Whatever your weight, may your mind be light and happy!<br />
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<br />Suzyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01937071446408284411noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8359632835675856138.post-35168086654266235682013-01-24T13:23:00.001-08:002013-01-24T13:23:41.568-08:00Mind TricksI was going to have a home office day today and those days are always very good for my health in many ways. I usually go for a run before sitting down for work, I eat well and in a healthy way and I stick to the set times (vs snacking all the time). Well, my office day was cancelled and I was called in to work, but surprisingly enough, it did not de-rail me today.<br />
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Going to work, working hard, solving conflicts, meeting people is all what I have chosen to do for a living and I enjoy it. However, it is relatively challenging and sometimes downright stressful. Today I made a very conscious effort to to keep my calm and when I came home and basically kept repeating a mantra in my head. The mantra went like this: Work is work, work is work, home is home, home is home, food is food, food is food. I'm trying to get rid of my existing mantra that goes like this: <strike>"Work is everything, home is where I think about work, food is a painkiller" </strike> .<br />
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Today my new mantra worked, I have had a totally balanced day. A good portion of work, family life, the internet surfing, exercise, eating right, drinking lots of water. Today, today I'm almost willing to admit that this kind of balance in life and peace in my mind is more important than losing weight... The weight today, by the way, 79.Suzyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01937071446408284411noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8359632835675856138.post-53898104265222855422013-01-23T01:36:00.001-08:002013-01-23T01:36:40.907-08:00More Baby Steps<b>79.6 </b>That means 400gr in 6 days. Minimal baby steps anyway.<br />
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Less stress, better everything. But can there be life without stress? -No. Can there be stress without over eating? - Hopefully.Suzyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01937071446408284411noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8359632835675856138.post-55001022160295648352013-01-17T00:12:00.001-08:002013-01-17T00:12:54.332-08:00Working and Emotional EatingWorking and Emotional Eating<br />
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...are absolutely linked. If I come home after six pm it's almost for sure I have a great need to binge. Do I think eating a lot somehow makes my evening longer? Or is it stress release?<br />
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Today I have a home office day like the day before yesterday, and I'm positive eating will take a side track again. When I go to work, I don't think about food and often I also don't eat during the work day, but when I come home all hell breaks loose. I'm tired of this. I want some balance, please!<br />
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Lots and lots of new snow out there again. Looks good and makes the world light. But I miss the blue sky, it's been cloudy or very cloudy since Christmas. However, I'll go out to do my cardio before working at the computer. Fresh air will be a good start. <br />
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<b>The weight today 80</b>. Good, down a kilo from Monday. Nothing new yet, because during the Fall my steady weight was down to 78 for a long time. I'll go hurray and claim I'm back to business when I go under 78. Suzyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01937071446408284411noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8359632835675856138.post-26168052711674664822013-01-15T00:10:00.001-08:002013-01-15T10:57:29.157-08:00Baby StepsThe biggest goal for today is to keep figuring out how to stop emotional eating.<br />
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The small goal is keep the energy intake down by 750 calories so tomorrow's scale would show yet another -100 gr.<br />
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Totally cloudy today, minus degrees, but yes, I'll go out there and get my cardio done. Only home office work today. <br />
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The weight today 80.7, down 300gr from yesterday.<br />
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<b>12/24 </b>The day is half way and everything's still fine. A nice blend of work, exercise, lunch, net surfing...<br />
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<b>20 /24</b> hours of the day done. And I'm done for today. It was a good day.<br />
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*Only spent a few moments here and there about thinking / worrying about my food intake or my weight<br />
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*got a little bit of strenght training done and some 30 min running in lovely crisp winter weather.<br />
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* A good breakfast, lunch and dinner. One apple, lots of vegetables, some meat and fish. Two wholegrain cookies were not the smartest choice as a snack, but the miracle is that it was just two cookies, not eight or ten!<br />
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ISuzyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01937071446408284411noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8359632835675856138.post-1468536548761390892013-01-13T22:56:00.006-08:002013-01-14T15:25:02.628-08:00MONDAYThis would be the day number four, but it definitely feels like number one because it's the promised day of the new beginnings. It's Monday! I'm drinking my coffee now and then heading for work.<br />
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The scale, the scale says 81kg. Exactly 81. So four months of blah blah blah. Talking and thinking but no actions. I'm setting a totally minimalistic goal now. 100gr by tomorrow. Think I can minus 750cal from my intake? Yeah yeah, I know that even if it happens it's just fluids but still, that sounds like a small enough goal, and a short one. <b>100gr in a day</b>.<br />
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Today's hours, <b>8 / 24</b> gone and nicely reading and sleeping, no eating or drinking in the middle of the night.<br />
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The end: an OK day on the surface, rode a bike to work and back, total of two hours of bicycling. 15 minutes of walking. Lots of water.<br />
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What I learned today? Under the surface. Well, this is not great news, but old facts. When I'm finally home from work, when I start thinking about work, I'd love to go to the kitchen and stuff my face with carbs. I absolutely use food as stress release. Now the bad news? I have no idea how to free myself from this behaviour. No idea. Suzyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01937071446408284411noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8359632835675856138.post-44910853542631447732013-01-12T23:40:00.002-08:002013-01-13T11:56:10.020-08:00Day Three<b>8,5</b> hours of the day number three are gone. Kind of sad how easily time slips through our fingers. Kind of good, how this seems to be working. My goals are very minor now. Just make it through one single day, 24 hours without letting the food rob my day from me. The two goals for each day are:<br />
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* I don't want to think food all the time, I don't want to feel sorry for myself and for my overweight, I just want to live. <br />
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* I don't want to over eat.<br />
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Breakfast: coffee, coffee, coffee, one boiled egg and some sliced turkey meat.<br />
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<b>at 21 pm </b>The hours <b>12-14, 18-20</b> not good, after eating reasonable lunch / dinner, I also ate unreasonable white bread (at least three bread rolls) and this and that :-(<br />
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The conclusion of the day 3 : 20/ 24 fine, 4 /24 a bummer <br />
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<br />Suzyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01937071446408284411noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8359632835675856138.post-43806852897119457662013-01-12T00:56:00.003-08:002013-01-12T13:04:08.033-08:00Day Two<b>10 / 24 </b>The day is almost half way. Well, I've slept through some eight out of those ten first hours. Drinking my breakfast coffee with sliced apples. Lots of new snow outside. It's pretty, but we'll go to swim in some thermal swimming pools, no skiing fanatics in this family.<br />
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<b>12,5 / 24 </b>So far so good. The lunch was vegetable stew and one half of a hot dog sausage diced up small and added to the stew. Now out and swimming.<br />
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<b>20 / 24 </b>A fun day. Turkey salad for dinner.<br />
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<b>22 / 24 </b>Hurrah, I made it. A fun and happy day. Thinking of food or overeating did not ruin this day. I feel good. Remembered to drink lots of water, stayed physically active. <br />
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Tuna fish and cottage cheese on a bed of lettuce as a night snack. Lots of tea.<br />
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I'm almost ready for bed so I dare to say <b>24/24 GOOD</b>Suzyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01937071446408284411noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8359632835675856138.post-71268924313153012362013-01-11T14:50:00.002-08:002013-01-11T14:56:32.443-08:00The Day One... or maybe the Day 0.75The Day One - not the Day Eleven (1/11/2012)<br />
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The first of January did not work wonders. No magic there.<br />
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This is my new beginning, <b>2/24</b> hours have gone OK so far :-D<br />
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Now <b>3/24</b> hours. Two things right:<br />
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*Not eating in the middle of the night<br />
*Drinking plenty of water<br />
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<b>10/24 </b>Almost halfway!! I'm drinking my morning coffee with some sliced apple. It's already 10 am. I'll only work in the afternoon today.<br />
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<b>11/24 </b>Painted my nails and ordered L'Oreal Perfect Slim cellulite cream on line. Trying to convince myself I am worth taking care of. One more mug of coffee.<br />
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<b>15/ 24 </b>hours. More than half of <i>the day number one. </i>Worked for a few hours, cleaned and organized at home a little bit. Trying to convince myself my home is worth taking care of. Ate absolutely fantastic vegetarian dish for lunch. It was some kind of stew that had Brussels sprouts, bell peppers, celery, chick peas and it was spiced with garlic and fresh ginger. Yummy, yummy, yummy. I had two bowls of it.<br />
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<b>18/ 24 </b>Only six hours left. Had one more bowl of vegetable soup and a few slices of orange. Drank lots of water. Prepared (but not eaten yet) buttermilk, quark and fruit. Mentally prepared to have some red wine, too. Kind of scared of that, though. Maybe I'll skip.<br />
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<b>the last six hours :-( </b>Not that good. I did drink that wine and yes, as I was afraid, the wine made me relaxed to eat some rye crackers, salty sausage, regular crackers and rice crackers. And the wine led to some beer as well.<br />
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<b>18/24 Good</b><br />
<b>6/ 24 Not that good, not that totally horrible either </b> <br />
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<b>The weight: Last time dared to check 80,1 (-2,3 since August)</b> <br />
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<b><br /></b>Suzyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01937071446408284411noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8359632835675856138.post-64784350548807544232012-12-14T15:05:00.000-08:002013-01-15T00:12:31.040-08:00Day OneI can't wait any longer. It's back to too much drinking and too much eating. Forget the countdown, I'm going cold turkey, 15 days too early.<br />
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The day one starts now. It's not 1st of January, it' not even Monday. It's just NOW, the beginning.<br />
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EDITED 1/15/13 Only in my dreams. The actual day one was like a week after the 1.1.13... Suzyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01937071446408284411noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8359632835675856138.post-84136270628793493902012-12-11T03:37:00.001-08:002012-12-11T03:37:34.354-08:00Handweights and Snow Twenty days and the magical new start, new life, new year will be here. The countdown is going well. I got those handweights and thare has been plenty of snowshovelling, too, to give my upper body busy. The crazy amount of snow has slowed down my running, though.<br />
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Honestly, the countdown could have gone wild. Knowing myself I'm actually quite surprised that instead of snow shovelling I haven't been shovelling food into myself. I could have very easily slipped into a mind set of letting lose before it's too late. I'm pleasantly surprised with myself.<br />
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The snow, the snow is wonderful. I don't mind getting my toes wet and cold. I love this real winter weather. When it melts, when the spring arrives, I'm going to like it too. And hopefully I'll like how I'll be then.<br />
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<br />Suzyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01937071446408284411noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8359632835675856138.post-30226892514480620162012-11-25T02:10:00.000-08:002012-11-25T02:22:51.242-08:00Trusting the MagicI'm going to throw myself into believing in the magic of the Brand New Year. The year 2013 will be my special year. The year I will drop extra kilos and extra this and that behind!<br />
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Let the count down begin! 36 days. 36 days for buying a set hand weights and 36 days of taking my first steps in weight training. Walking and jogging are OK, but I have been told over and over weight and resistance training is essential for losing weight.<br />
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36 days of count down.Suzyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01937071446408284411noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8359632835675856138.post-89935715095381905552012-11-24T02:43:00.003-08:002012-11-25T02:07:12.949-08:00A Little Taste of NormalityA few days ago I got to taste "normality". It was really strange. And really, really lovely.<br />
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I had had a long and stressful day, on the way home I stopped at a deli and picked up a delicious bagel with good stuff. Later I ate the bagel and that was it. I didn't even think about food or much of anything else until a few hours later when I realised I was really really thirsty. And I drank three glasses of water and went to bed.<br />
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So what was so strangely normal about my day?! Two things. Firstly, I had the delicious bagel, enjoyed it and felt satisfied. Usually after a long and stressful day and stuff my face with everything possible. Secondly, I experienced thirst. It's very rare for me to feel thirsty. And to recognise it as thirst and not a food graving.<br />
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This is how I would love to live my life. Have this peaceful relationship to food and weight-issues. Let food serve as nutrition and not as a source of stress or destructive way of trying to cope with stress. <br />
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<br />Suzyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01937071446408284411noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8359632835675856138.post-46663548440112121012012-11-06T05:51:00.000-08:002012-11-06T05:51:05.547-08:00October RunsI did it, the October calorie count for running is 7700. That meant 108 kilometers.<br />
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The battle in my head goes on. I still haven't thrown myself in this weight loss struggle. Each day I feel yuckier and yuckier about myself, the rock bottom has to be near. And then, then the only way is up!Suzyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01937071446408284411noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8359632835675856138.post-23951609441153268322012-10-17T19:31:00.001-07:002012-10-17T19:31:42.526-07:00The Boots that Zip upThe knee lenght winter boots from last year zip up npw. But not easily, it would be uncomfortable to wear them. So I'm not hopping on the scale yet.<br />
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Two thirds of the month is gone and two thirds of my running goal (to burn 7,500 cal) is gone! Suzyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01937071446408284411noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8359632835675856138.post-18456403533338170562012-10-11T02:47:00.002-07:002012-10-11T02:47:34.382-07:00October StepsThis month I'm aiming for running 7,500 calories away. One third of the month is gone and one third of the goal has been achieved. October weather is perfect for running. This is fun.<br />
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I have not dared to step on the scale for several weeks. Last time when I did and the number hadn't changed a bit from the previous time (78 KG), I had one of those brain hiccups. The hiccup goes like this: "I'm disappointed, this is not working, I don't give a s**t, I give up, I stuff my face with junk food again...". I got over the hiccup, but I'm not going to make the same mistake again.<br />
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My winter boots from last year are too small. I can't pull the zippers all the way up. When I can, that's when I step on the scale again.Suzyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01937071446408284411noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8359632835675856138.post-71617698734911367172012-10-02T00:43:00.001-07:002012-10-02T00:43:17.056-07:00Runners' High Doesn't Equal Dieters' HighI now have hard core facts how hard it is to burn off your fat. The key word, unfortunately, is lower calorie intake.<br />
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In September I ran 63 kilometers, it took me eight hours and 17 minutes, and it only burnt 5, 777 calories. Sure enough September was a very very busy month and usually I believe I run more often than 13 times a month. But still, running makes me feel good, but it's not going to make me thin!<br />
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For October I have set the meter according to 78 kilos (it was set for 80 in September) and my goal is to reach that magical 7, 500 calories which would mean one kilo. So far (today, the second of October): 590 cal, 52 min, 6,6 KM.<br />
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The world is perfect for running right now. No more bugs. Not too hot. Not too cold. Just perfect. Suzyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01937071446408284411noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8359632835675856138.post-75751823844310989702012-09-10T23:36:00.000-07:002012-09-10T23:36:16.689-07:00Fun and FunctionalityIt's certainly non fun to be so lost with your body image, but a much bigger issue is the loss of functionality. It's hard to sit on the floor. It's very hard to stand up from the floor. I can run like a train for an hour or even two, but I can not sprint. Playing soccer or basketball would be hard and I would really risk spraining an ankle or a knee.<br />
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Remember, my turning point was carrying that heavy suitcase. It's a powerful image. When I'm running in the trails through a forest I have so much fun, but I keep thinking how much more fun and how much easier it would be without dragging a huge suitcase with me! This is where that goal of 30 kilos comes from. Someone questioned the amount wondering if it was unrealistic. Oh I agree, my goal is unrealistic. And most likely the goal will change because I know I will feel at home with my weight at 10 or 15 kilos lighter.<br />
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I have a pretty good idea of how I would be if I seriously got rid of 30 kilos. I have weighed those 30 kilos less when I was a busy and poor collage student. I had no scale then. I couldn't afford buying new clothes, so I was unaware of my clothing size. I couldn't care less of dieting because I simply had to buy the cheapest foods around. And I was fully... functional. I could run, play ball games and basically could have done whatever I wanted. Of course I had other issues back then, so no I didn't live up to my potential. And now being overweight I still do pretty much everything I want to. Your weight, after all, is not what makes you who you are!<br />
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Slowly, I'm pulling out the stuff from my suitcase and throwing it away. That's my mental image. Pulling out dirty socks and wet towels and throwing them away. 78 today. Four kilos (4.4 exactly) gone, 26 left.<br />
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<br />Suzyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01937071446408284411noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8359632835675856138.post-59017298416289485962012-09-05T04:27:00.002-07:002012-09-05T05:11:47.763-07:00Look the Same as You FeelIt's been a while since the mirror agrees with my inner image. Today, for example, I went running and afterwards I felt all pretty, lovely and in shape. The mirror shows a red-faced and over weight woman. On other days I feel super super big and yet the mirror presents a slightly overweight, pretty and smiling woman!<br />
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One day, one day I'll look the same I feel. And I will feel like I look!<br />
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PS 81.3 That means one kilo (of water retention, I know) gone, 29 left Suzyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01937071446408284411noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8359632835675856138.post-20033494947646168972012-09-01T11:26:00.003-07:002012-09-01T11:26:45.363-07:00What I Thought I'd Be DoingThis is the very first time I am actually writing in this blog late at night with a glass of red wine next to me. This is how I envisioned my blog life to be!<br />
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It has been a good day. I went for run in the morning and I have been eating in a sensibly way and best of all, no compulsive behavior at all. I have been too busy to think about food and I have been somehow back to my more normal self about not over eating or eating anything possible in sight. Right now I have entered my personal danger zone, though. The house is quiet, everyone is doing their own stuff and it's MY TIME. And usually that means surfing the net and several trips to the fridge! But tonight, for the first time ever, instead of fridge tourism I'm writing this little note and when I'm done I'll plan to surf the blogs and yes, you've got it, I'm targeting all those blogs that tell me it's possible to lose weight, it's possible to live without extra burdens, it's possible to learn new things, it's possible to break free!<br />
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It is possible to break free.Suzyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01937071446408284411noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8359632835675856138.post-9854413160595375302012-08-28T21:15:00.000-07:002012-08-28T21:15:12.678-07:00It's not Fat, it's a Way of BehavingMy wall, my wall of protection, my wall is not made of fat. I don't need the kilograms of fat around me to protect me. What I need is the emotional eating. Eating and drinking as a stress release, over-eating when I feel bad, eating the wrong stuff when I am disappointed, eating too much or sometimes too little when I'm not in control of a certain situation... Wow, I'm getting answers to my questions. What shall I do with the answers? What shall I do?Suzyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01937071446408284411noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8359632835675856138.post-48214578223526587292012-08-27T22:44:00.000-07:002012-08-27T22:44:05.436-07:00Desperately HopefulThe scale went back to 81.8 and even if this small change from yesterday's 82.4. is just a fluke I'm claiming it to be the first step. But seriously, I had no idea how strange and almost nightmarish my thoughts would turn when I decided to lose weight. I'm ready to say this business has basically nothing to do with calories, food, energy in and out but it's all about YOUR HEAD, mind, soul, heart and emotions!<br />
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The wall, the protective wall of extra kilos. I still have no answer why I need it. I have one guess and it has to do with negative feelings. I have a tendency to think super positively, I like pushing all the bad stuff aside and concentrating on the positive. It's not a bad way to live but the fact is I just simply have no power to stop all the bad events, negative comments, hurtful words, sad stories. They still exist whether I think about them or not. And now, maybe, maybe I deal with the unpleasant stuff in my life by eating or overeating?!<br />
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I have now become painfully aware of the psychological sides of weight issues. I keep working on my head. I just have to. If I start counting calories or make the portions smaller right now I'm absolutely sure it will just lead to senseless and terrifying over-eating.Suzyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01937071446408284411noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8359632835675856138.post-72985830348294104952012-08-26T19:53:00.002-07:002012-08-26T19:53:36.674-07:0082.4 still Building up the WallThis is crazy. The battle is getting fierce and so far I'm losing it.Suzyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01937071446408284411noreply@blogger.com0