Fun and Functionality

It's certainly non fun to be so lost with your body image, but a much bigger issue is the loss of functionality. It's hard to sit on the floor. It's very hard to stand up from the floor. I can run like a train for an hour or even two, but I can not sprint. Playing soccer or basketball would be hard and I would really risk spraining an ankle or a knee.

Remember, my turning point was carrying that heavy suitcase. It's a powerful image. When I'm running in the trails through a forest I have so much fun, but I keep thinking how much more fun and how much easier it would be without dragging a huge suitcase with me! This is where that goal of 30 kilos comes from. Someone questioned the amount wondering if it was unrealistic. Oh I agree, my goal is unrealistic. And most likely the goal will change because I know I will feel at home with my weight at 10 or 15 kilos lighter.

I have a pretty good idea of how I would be if I seriously got rid of 30 kilos. I have weighed those 30 kilos less when I was a busy and poor collage student. I had no scale then.  I couldn't afford buying new clothes, so I was unaware of my clothing size. I couldn't care less of dieting because I simply had to buy the cheapest foods around. And I was fully... functional. I could run, play ball games and basically could have done whatever I wanted. Of course I had other issues back then, so no I didn't live up to my potential. And now being overweight I still do pretty much everything I want to. Your weight, after all, is not what makes you who you are!

Slowly, I'm pulling out the stuff from my suitcase and throwing it away. That's my mental image. Pulling out dirty socks and wet towels and throwing them away. 78 today. Four kilos (4.4 exactly) gone, 26 left.